I am invincible, that's what I thought and the life that I lived.
My health fading was the only thing I thought could break me.
Then there was you. You weren't what would ultimately break me. You never pushed or forced anything. You allowed me to be as I was.
What broke me was the weight of my regret and your memory. How something intangible could be so physically heavy, I may never understand.
I live each day carrying the weight of that regret like my trophy as if it makes my choices better - justifies the hurt in me and the hurt I have caused.
I can't imagine putting down this weight, and it is the only thing I have of you.